Well, today, I come to you with so many emotions. This last year has been such an amazing ride! I reconnected with my creative side and have taken many steps to share my gift with all of you. I decided to take a risk and put myself out there just to see what might happen. The response has been more than I could ask for and for that I am so grateful. It truly feels amazing to create art regularly and to be involved in this amazing art community that I have found online. I have connected with so many other creative spirits, and some have become very good friends of mine, although we have never even met in person. I have found some kindred spirits, some soul sisters, that understand what I feel on a daily basis, THE NEED TO CREATE!! I can’t tell you all how thankful I am to have found you!
While this has all been so amazing, I am totally failing as a mother and wife at the moment. I have put my artistic needs in front of everything and anything else. For that, I am not proud and saddened by. How selfish of me! 🙁 My younger daughter told me the other day that I only have time for work and paint, and no time for her. What a stab in the heart. She is right, though! I wake up each day and can’t wait to go to my studio (the garage) and start composing my piece, or finishing one, whatever it is that I am doing. Of course I wake up and can’t wait to see the bright, smiling faces of my children, but then it is off to create! I am having a terrible time finding balance, and I need it, because I need my family and I need art. So, how do I go about finding this balance? How do I enjoy both and feel that I have time for both?
I am in charge of this ship that I am sailing. I know where I want to go with it, and I feel that I am in such a rush. I need to slow down and be patient. I cannot enjoy the artistic journey if the rest of my family is suffering. I would love to hear from all of you about how you balance life, work, art, etc. If you are trying to transition from one career to another, how are you managing without sinking your ship? I certainly don’t want to sink my ship, especially the one that my family is on. I love them way too much, but also need to stay on this journey that I am currently on. My SOS flag is waving. PLEASE. SEND. HELP.